♥ Sunday, January 9, 2011
since nobody really looks at my blog, i might as well say im feeling bout rite now!!!!
told khalia tat im leavin 4 taiwan near the start of feb...well i dont noe if she remembered it anot, but i did told her tat im leavin 4 3 weeks!!!! BUT in fact i'll be over there 4 more than tat, 6 weeks which is close to 2 months!!! DO YOU WAT ITS LIKE bein over there close to 2 months...i might really go CRAZY!!!!! crazy in missing you guys, FARAH, SAIDAH, KHALIA, SHAADAH, ATIKAH, not to mention AWIN n RAMNAH!!!! arghhh im goin to soo miss them soo much till my heart will ache!!! n i really do ache!!!! THEY are a part of my life!!! wish i didnt hav to leave them...!!! n now im plannin to leave quietly....i doubt tat khalia remembered it!!! but i juz hope they do!!! to hear them say YAN, i am goin to miss you!!! juz hearin tat is enuf to make me cry, practically as i am writing dis post...i could almost cry...i didnt wan to tell you guys coz....i noe its a selfish reason or a stupid reason, call it wat you wan...but i juz dont wan you guys to be down, sad!!!!! i cant bear to see sadness in you, i wanna protect those smiles, i juz wanna see your smiles when i get back n when i go!!! YOU guys mean soo much to me...i really wanna tell you guys wat im bout to do...all dis while when i went out wif you guys, i felt soo sad tat im bout to go away, i kept my feelings bottled up, in my mind i juz wish you guys can stop me from leaving!!! i dont how many times i can call back when im over there, but if anything happens to me over there...well lets juz hope tat anything doesnt happen to me....ARGHHHH!!!! WAT SHOULD I DO!!!! WAT SHOULD I DO!!!! I DONT WAN TO SEE YOU GUYS sad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SOME1 please juz SAVE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =( ='( =( ='(
4give me evry1 4 doin it again like tat time!!!! im really soory!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3YJz0w0NaRU
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6LUxhpRizTo
4:05 AM
my heart is my possession/
I'll be my own reflection.
♥ Saturday, August 29, 2009
wow..its been so long since i last blogged, haha dunno why but i kind of missed it but today i juz wanna blog bout my feelings lately..needed to let it out hahaha soo bear wif me ehh..
i have been feeling down lately even though at school i may not look like it but trust me it hurts me soo much on the inside..i dont wan my frens to noe tats why i always act happy hahaha..why am i such a good guy?? haha juz kidding bout the last part..soo bout the down part
okay let me tell u bout a tale..bout an totally average guy n a totally special girl tat means the world to the guy..soo its like dis..well from the way i describe the tale you guys would probably tat..tat the guy fall in love wif the girl..haha but here comes the part..well soo the guy fall in love wif the girl soo much tat he always do the stupidiest thing for the girl like waitin for her, buying things for her n even though his frens told him to either go home instead of watin or dont buy things tat are expensive for her..he still didnt care, he would continue waitin n he didnt care much for his own pocket money, instead of spendin it on himself..he would rather spend it on her..even though he waited soo long..he was still satisfied enuf juz to see her from far or juz a simple smile and juz HI..for he juz wanted to see her
soo anyway..he loved her very dearly but deep inside he knew tat the girl would nvr fall in love wif him back..but he juz continue to do so..i really wonder wat drives him ehh?? hahah..he said tat he wanted a final answer from the girl coz if he didnt get the final answer, he would still continue to be HUNG UP on her or in simpler terms it means tat he couldnt get her out from his heart..soo 1 day she turned him down..he was sad, depressed n almost every night he cried himself to sleep not physically but inside he was crying..soo even then he still hopes for it..he knew tat it was really useless to hope but he still cling on to it...he then made an oath..his oath was tat if she wanted to be his fren onli soo shall he be too..he would do dis for her sake, if tat is wat makes her happy he will do it..coz seein her happy and always smiling is wat he desires the most..he knew tat he could nvr be the 1 for her but he nvr stopped believing n hoping until now he kept on loving her n she will and always forever inside his heart
So is LOVING some1 wif all their heart a crime??? N wat will you do if the person u love soo much rejected you?? Would you keep Hoping?? Will you keep on bein their fren even though if it kills u on the inside?? N is a person OUTER looks really tat important than the inside?? this questions are always inside my head
dis is juz like a song i heard from RASCAL FLATTS- WINNER AT A LOSING GAME
"Have you ever had to love some1, tat juz dont feel the same, tryin to make somebody care for you, its like tryin to catch the rain, N if love is really forever, im a winner at a losing game"
Is Hope onli for FOOLS?? tat i still dunno guess i will have to find out for myself
8:10 PM
my heart is my possession/
I'll be my own reflection.
♥ Wednesday, June 17, 2009
heyy watsup people tat i noe?? haha having a good week?? a good day or totally the opposite?? hahah well for me, im feelin a little bit of good and bad and well some of EMO sort of feeling hahahah wow 1 person can barely survive one of those, imagine how can i survive 3 at the same time and day, hahaha okay2 soo lets start wif the good first...hmm actually i dunno any good tat happen to me today, yes wait there is, okay the good thing is tat finally im goin to go out next week wif my frens hahah finally, i made plans YAHOO, hahahah goin to see a movie tat is 3-d hahah how cool is tat, haha okay now on to the bad thing, started out day okay lah but den had a fight with my mom and now hahah well she's giving me the silent treatment hahah well tak kisah sangat lah, goin to see who will outlast the other hahah wow im soo evil, i like it hahah okay now on to the part where im bein EMO, okay been feeling it since the past week and i dunno why but i tot tat i threw away the emo part of me, hahah well if its in a person, it can nvr be throw away, it always stays inside, hahaha okay i think maybe i noe why lah, maybe coz im missing some1 precious to me, haha every morning keep tinkin of her and every night b4 i go to bed i will always tink of her guess she's my addictive chocolate sweet on the inside and even sweeter on the outside, hahaha juz hoping she is well, MISS HER SO okay2 alrite i tink i will end the drama here hahah i wanna go bed arh, K sry people coz dis is a short post i juz wanna let out my feelings hahaha okay cya alrite
wishin you are well always...onli ur face and ur smile tat appear in my head..i cant get you out...if there is a cure for missing some1...i dont tink i wan it coz if i do take the cure..i wont be able to miss you anymore
9:30 AM
my heart is my possession/
I'll be my own reflection.
♥ Thursday, June 11, 2009
*sweepin dust and blowin dust* wow i wonder how long it has been since i last post..hahah man it must be soo long hahah soo sry if i nvr post anything in the past few months, internet sometimes down sometimes okay and alot of times irritating, haha soo kinda explains why i nvr post, okay i wanna start fresh dis time, soo now is my holiday period, im soo bored at home seh, always playin game ajer, kinda feel tat im rottin at home hahah, any1 wanna ask me out?? any1 please?? hahaha well okay soo dis is wat happen during the last few days...okay mon,tues,wed....all day play game rottin at home, and yesterday was kinda fun..well at least for me tat is, okay soo dis is wat happen, okay ONCE UPON A TIME there was a fine prince and a princess, wait wait wait REWIND AND REMIX.. dis aint a fairytale, its a reality hahahahah man im so lame but tat works for me...kk yesterday went to school at ard 1 + like tat..maybe ur all wondering why i went to school on a school holiday..well theres a reason for everything rite okay soo dis is my reason, i juz felt bored at home and juz went to school and well i wanted to search for a certain person and guess wat i found tat person hahah soo cool, soo after i saw tat person, went to FORUM to wait for saidah coz i wanted to see the interclass competition, at least tat is better than playing game all day, haha there were so many people there and like WOW who knew netball was such a big HIT in SIMEI ITE, all the girls and guy all playin netball like theres no tomorrow but congratulation to MACCHEESEPIE and GRANDOLA for winning hahah and yesterday i made alot of new friends hahaha im soo friendly seh..shud give myself a pat on the back...*patting on the back* hahah awesome alrite soo the whole competition ended at around 6 plus like dat..went to bedok and took 30 to go to telok blangah coz got maulud and slept at 1 plus coz messaging my dear friend shaadah since she was bored soo entertain her abit and den sleep, ouh ya shaadah HAPPY HELPING UR MOTHER DOIN THE ENGAGEMENT THINGY...hahaha gd luck jangan jadi robot sudah and tats wat happen yesterday
AS for today..currently waitin for my MP3 to charge and poof..off to school cant wait to see wat today is like and im soo gonna have soo much fun at my CCA today which is SOUL PERCUSSION, haha okaylah i tink i posted enuf for today hahah TOODLES..which mean cya in ashley tisdale terms hahaha
P.s LOVE IS IN THE AIR PEOPLE...juz wishin tat you would notice me more...ur smile soo sweet tat it haunted my every moment...SEEIN U was enuf to stir my heart up in all directions,TALKIN TO U is enuf to make my heart beat soo damn faster, BUT THE TOT of bein wif u..well tat is so enuf for me to lose my heart to u,and for me tat is soo worth IT
6:00 PM
my heart is my possession/
I'll be my own reflection.
♥ Sunday, March 29, 2009
YEAH YEAH...TOMORROW GOIN WWW(Wild Wild Wet) hahahaha yeah cant wait 4 tomorrow so long looking 4ward 2 it hahaha...yeah tomorrow my dreams will become reality...goin 2 become shark...hahahah YEAH...now tats juz lame hahah but yeah juz cant express my feelings ;P
12:08 AM
my heart is my possession/
I'll be my own reflection.
♥ Sunday, March 8, 2009
heyyy2 watsupppp people hahaha..kay2 wanna update bout yesterday and today firstly bout yesterday mum and dad came back from SWISS hahaha been 3 days since they left hahahah..kind of miss them sikit2 je arh hahaha onli 3 days je kalau lamer maybe banyak arh...agaknya...hahaha
okay their flight landed at ard 4.30 like tat...reach there at 4 so hav 2 wait longer...met my father fren there and my mum fren..so i juz sat ard the benches there until they finally came out...well something felt odd within me...i juz felt relieve when i saw them and i dunno why...hahah so lepas dahh berbual sikit2 den we off 2 HAJJAH MAIMUNAH which is a buffet restaurant at geylang there..mum and dad wanna eat there cause its been 3 days since they had rice 4 their meal..so makan2 gitu dahh nak sampai malam..lamer seh makan hahaha..n btw im so damn tired seh hahaha...so sleepy so balik terus ingat nak tido bt den mum said tat my cousin later comin so i was so excited..tak jadi tido hahaha so when they arrive..the first thing i do was laugh at my aunt..man seriously she had a serious and i really mean serious haircut.. her whole face was like a guy face sry ehh MAMI AIDA..hahaha soo after tat me and my cousin did a movie when i wont say movie bt a episode marathon of OURAN HIGH SCHOOL..hahah the show was kind of idiotic in a good way and so damn funny...so tgk2 sampai lah kul 1 gitu...den after tat i go sleep first while the rest continue watching movie in the living room so well tats bout it 4 yesterday...k bout today pulak
hmm today...woke up at ard 9 gitu..watch TV till 11.30 and back 2 sleep..well today planning 2 go gym wif cousy bt den they all nvr called so ended up duduk rumah so boring seh so now tats why im blogging..so damn bored seh chattin pon takder saper interesting online hahaha k lah i dont wan 2 bore u guys any longer hahaha nanti tertido pulak kat atas computer hahaha k buh-bye guys n take care y'all
arghhh...im so missing her alot her...shes all tat on my mind every song tat i hear keeps reminding me of u wish i could talk 2 u online bt u cant be online since ur internet got prob i so wanna talk 2 u..got no mood 2 eat dis past few days hahaha tats juz 2 show how much i miss u..hehehe =P
6:54 AM
my heart is my possession/
I'll be my own reflection.
♥ Thursday, March 5, 2009
hahahaha...hello guys soo sry 4 not updating dis past weeks or months as i mention in my previous post..i got a lot of probs tat needs solving well they did...yesterday i've nvr felt soo happy in my life seh..FINALLY I CAN STOP TINKIN BOUT IT..well we all have 2 MOVE ALONG rite..or MOVING ON from those probs..hahahah so guess im back in my mood 2 blog hahaha MAN IM SO HAPPY hahaha..k lets start afresh
actually now im having lesson which is DMT(3d graphic) but i like cant wait 2 express my happiness hahaha so tgh class pon jadi arh..hahaha so yeah juz wait 4 my next post k and i will try 2 update daily arh hahahaha...k lah cant type much my teacher might see me hahaha k take care u guys out there..cya guys
P.s btw im missing some1 so damn much..i tried 2 tell her tat i miss her so much...but she juz wont believe me hahaha...well i cant blame her...hahahah but shes still and always in my mind N heart hahahah..k lah enuf of tat hahaha
BUH-BYE
5:44 PM
my heart is my possession/
I'll be my own reflection.
